Certain things in this Universe are unbelievable until you experience them for yourself. Losing someone to death and finding out the true meaning of life are the two that come to mind. The one that comes to mind the most is true love. It's something that you simply can't be told what it feels like. Well you can be told what it feels like, but you simply won't understand what they mean until you get the experience for yourself.
I've always considered myself a romantic to an extent, or at least a guy that knows what to say and when to say it. I'm just a good opportunist. I say this to lead into my wonderful past few days.
Friday is where I'll begin, although the enjoyment began much sooner. Friday just a day for a big moment in my life, which I'll get to. The day began with summer school...yay! Afterwards the most amazing girl to ever grace the face of this pathetic planet with her presence, Robin, picked me up from school. We had been dating for a few days up until this point, but had spent at least 4+ days together when you add the hours together. Anyway we drove to pick up Andrew, and then onward to Chrissy's. I figured two of my closest friends should get to know the girl I'm in lo...Well I'll get to that in a moment. ;)
So we chilled at Chrissy's for a while. Just hanging out, ya know? We were waiting to go see Wall-E later on in the night and had time to kill. Our killing of time consisted of Guitar Hero, talking, and (my favorite) cuddling with Robin. Of course during all of this Chrissy decided to pull her camera out and start snapping pictures of me and Robin. Then she went for taking a video. Right then and there I had one thing running through my mind. Something I felt deep in my heart ever since I first laid my eyes upon Robin. I looked into the camera and said, "I love this girl." and I have never meant anything more truly in my life.
My opportunist personality seems to be thriving whenever I'm with Robin. It's as if my heart is telling my head, "Okay. You think up something to make this girl blush, and we'll go from there!" because whenever I'm around her I feel empowered to make her happy. Like when we first kissed, I went for it in front of a bunch of people while she was scared and about to get her septum pierced. I don't know, I guess I just have a way with words and my actions.
Anyway from there we saw Wall-E and the night was amazing. Saturday I spent my day with Robin and her wonderful family. I was helping them move, and I'm really happy I did. It's weird. I never have the initiative to do ANYTHING, but when it concerns Robin I just want to get to work. I want a job. I want to better myself so bad. I'm not sure if it's for her, or for myself though. Either way, I'm glad she's impacting me the way she is. Even if she's doing it unintentionally. So anyway I spent the day with her family, who I think like me. I really love that they do, since I want to spend as much time as possible with this girl. I want them to allow me to have Robin's heart. So I'm truly glad they like me. They apparently are even okay enough with allowing me to lay with her in her bed. Big accomplishment in trust...I think.
That was Saturday, but Sunday was a day I'd been waiting for for some time. It was the summer campout with Generic Emo-Scene Band, The Dropkick Murphys, and The Mighty Mighty Bosstones! The music was amazing, but the dancing was horrible. Although I spent most of my time holding my baby, which made the night all the more special. I chilled with Eddy, which was cool too. The day was really just another amazing day with my girlfriend.
Then today I spent the day with Robin yet again. Just helping with the move, ya know? We took a nap together and held each other all day. I'm learning more and more about this girl every day, and I'm falling deeper and deeper. It's so weird for me to be this open and falling so fast, but it's happening. I hold certain stories to myself and don't tell anyone everything, but with her I seem to be able to open up without a second thought. The first time we even met I was able to tell her some of my most personal things. I've stayed up over 30 hours in a row just so I wouldn't have to spend a moment not speaking to this girl! I'm truly head over heEls for her.
Throughout my personal life journey I've found one thing to be constant. That thing is the need for love. Every living species with the ability to think has the ability to love. Regardless of your religion, or your genus, you are going to be wanting love in some capacity. Once you find that love that you've been craving ever since your birth, you feel...uplifted. It's as if every insignificant thing you've done up until this point has mattered. It's all been a combination of mistakes and false hope, but the end result is a feeling greater than anything you could ever imagine.
I'm in love with someone, and I've never smiled so big.
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